The Beginning

I was recently given the gift of down time.  Stress free relaxation.  As I sat there I began to consider the last few years of my life.  By few years, I mean from the time I was about 18 years old.  I thought to myself that I was tired of learning the hard way.  Tired of making a comeback.  Tired of putting my time and energy where it didn't belong, where it wasn't wanted or where I truly deserved a little bit better.  This is it... I am not writing this for you.  I am not writing this for anyone but me.  If you read it and enjoy it and can take some comfort in knowing the missteps I have made are able to be put behind you then that will be icing on the cake and I welcome your comments/feedback.  If you read it and can't identify with anything I write... Great for you.  You made a lot better decisions than me

I am not a writer.  I like to use "..." at the end of sentences.  My grammar could stand some improving.  My run on sentences could drive an English teacher to drink.  These things, as important as they are, are secondary to the story.  The falls, the picking up pieces, the piecing things back together.

That's what it comes down to.  Picking up the pieces and putting them back together, no matter how small the pieces are.  No matter how many pieces seem to be missing.  I have two wonderful children and I enjoy doing jigsaw puzzles with them.  I've always instructed them to go through and pull out the edge pieces, assembling them first.  Then working on groups based on color.  The green of the grass, the red of the barn, the blue of the sky.  Give the puzzle some structure, one piece at a time and then fill it in.

Before I get too far ahead of myself.  This isn't going to be a woe is me story.  I made these decisions that have led me to this place.  It's not even a bad place.  I just took the scenic, foolish route to where I am.  It's also not a story of victory.  I have won many battles, but I know I have a long way to go.

Fair Warning:
1)  Call me out if I say TRY.  TRY is a negative word that amounts to giving yourself an out for not doing something.  I'll TRY to help you move, I'll TRY to stop drinking too much.  Awful word.
2)  I will talk about me.  Suck it.
3)  Music is important to me.  Music that means something... Sad?  Sometimes, but not always... I will reference songs that have touched me over the years.  Songs that I hold near and dear to my heart.  Life can't always be synced to an Usher Remix.
4)  I won't name you AND tell your dirty little secrets.  I may do one or the other, but not both.
5)  Life is short... Laugh as much as you can
6)  Want me to write about something?  Let me know.
7)  This mess is going to be WAY out of order... To protect the guilty (me)

Kevin